The Sensation of Panic

What sensation causes thee

locking, clicking of the knees?

For long, the chattering voices stop

to make the locking knees just pop.

What sensation causes such

for rushing blood and moving much?

For then, lightheaded and to blame

in what I feel to be self-shame.

What sensation causes fear

to love me so and bring it here?

For once, it holds me in my place

and leaves all color without a trace.

What sensation causes me

to gaze up on and lock my knees?

For what my body, mind, and soul,

flood the thoughts of being whole.

What sensation causes this

opposition of all bliss?

For my attention, and intention, 

 innocent in disposition

causes this sensation manic,

causes much my soul to panic.

-LJ

6 March 2016